ANTEPARTUM: GIRL
The ultrasound technician probes
the mother’s bulging belly,
wiggles it, trying
to get the fetus to share
the secret between its legs.
But the mother already knows.
She thinks of her …
The ultrasound technician probes
the mother’s bulging belly,
wiggles it, trying
to get the fetus to share
the secret between its legs.
But the mother already knows.
She thinks of her …
The hands are not stopped at noon,
are pouring clean water from a green pitcher.
The vacancy in me flashing from the road.
Swimming pool. CABLE TV. Park in back.
Am sea deep and seaweed thick tangled. Am
weighted blanket, hide. Am hush of woods, not
a needle stirred. Am crack of oak, fallen.
shush of purpled sky under fist …
Today, no song, God, repentance
ringing as words flute up through rafters.
What remains: a bird feeder heavy
with seed, like a soon-to-be
mother swaying. And finches,
cardinals, away from …
Because my daughter is afraid. Because she checks
and double-checks the doors, the windows, the ones
even that hang thirty feet above the ground. Because
there might be a person, …
Walls, once milk-white, now scalded from the flame
of years, a broken black line from folding chairs
leaned back, scuffing paint. You can tell
full-timers—propped-up feet, the way they sit
on brocade cushions …
Tie my shoes, my self-portrait running for fun
in the deep woods, poisoned with the soot
of another forest fire in the distance, another Oregon
I didn’t know how to spell the …
I like guns in TV shows.
The guns on TV shows are just like guns,
Like the people shooting other people
On TV shows are just like people.
I like …
In childhood, you thought that the world
could be had: consumed like cut-up melon.
Looking at the map curling up the classroom wall—
its gradient landmasses and oceans—
you thought, what sort of …
“Put your shoes on,”
he says from the couch,
“There’s thorns on the porch,”
only I was knee-deep in the mop bucket.
The soapy grey water wouldn’t protect my feet
In sleepless nights
In the depths of despair
where not a ray
can be glimpsed
I think of you . . .
The ties are broken
the ropes snapped
and …
If, in the middle
of the night, words
come; ignore
let the sleeping children
need you
though waves
of light approach
let the man with whom you …